Obama - be the change you want to see

What a day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Watching the election results last night in a small cafe with a friend of mine, I must admit I got all teary eyed. In some ways I wasn't allowing myself up until then to be truly hopeful. Truly hopeful that the US can change - and if the US change, that we all can change.

Obama's victory speech was so moving. Moving because of his composure, because he seemed to embody all that eh was saying but also for me because he didn't deny the fact that the road forward is going to be a difficult one - that for all those Americans who want to see change, they need to be first and foremost the change they want to see!!!!

And because his speech was so moving here in his own words:

“I know you didn't do this just to win an election and I know you didn't do it for me. You did it because you understand the enormity of the task that lies ahead. For even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime - two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century. […]

The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep. We may not get there in one year or even in one term, but America - I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there. I promise you - we as a people will get there.
There will be setbacks and false starts. There are many who won't agree with every decision or policy I make as president, and we know that government can't solve every problem. But I will always be honest with you about the challenges we face. I will listen to you, especially when we disagree.
And above all, I will ask you to join in the work of remaking this nation the only way it's been done in America for 221 years - block by block, brick by brick, calloused hand by calloused hand.

This victory alone is not the change we seek - it is only the chance for us to make that change. And that cannot happen if we go back to the way things were. It cannot happen without you, without a new spirit of service, a new spirit of sacrifice.

So let us summon a new spirit of patriotism; of service and responsibility where each of us resolves to pitch in and work harder and look after not only ourselves, but each other. Let us remember that if this financial crisis taught us anything, it's that we cannot have a thriving Wall Street while Main Street suffers - in this country, we rise or fall as one nation; as one people. “

It’s giving me shivers …

Indeed, we all ought to and deserve to be hopeful, but it ain't going to fall right out of the sky - it's going to take everyone's effort, sweat and tears and sacrifices. It's going to take our sense of COMMUNITY - a sentiment that seems to have gotten lost all too often in this ever more competitive modern world of ours emphasising the pursuit of selfish individuality...

So many of my friends have been saying that for the first time in a long time they feel proud again! Proud and hopeful. Hopeful that this administration will know how to treat the environment, gently and with respect and finally hear the wake up call and maybe even sign Kyoto?? Hopeful that money will be allocated to healthcare. Hopeful that spending will be shifted from money going towards weapons of any sort to education and research.
Hopeful that by electing an African American & the change he embodies the country will know to be more humble, and tolerant than ever.

And I'll leave you with this video.

One incredible man

I've been absent - yes; and lots of things have happened and I owe an update - and it will come.
but for now I just want to post one thing - that you MUST watch. This man is something else.

Summer in Vancouver = Rain and twelve degrees

... OK so maybe I am exaggerating but ever since I got back from my consultancy trip to Senegal coming up to 2 weeks ago it has been cold and rather grey - now raining!

My life has been somewhat on the accelerator mode of late - trying to juggle some contract work to pay the bills and make sure I don't land on the streets in the last home 'thesis' stretch, as well as the thesis writing itself. The latter has been going well - though definitely happening in spurts. I had gathered some good momentum in June - then was forced to delve into some other work for most of July. Mind you, it has been some truly exciting and interesting work - taking part in discussions on establishing a network of marine protected areas in West Africa, and advising/assisting where necessary a group of scientists, NGO workers and government officials that has been involved in the process for a little while now. My trip to Senegal was to participate at a workshop trying to define more clearly what the stakeholders see as the overarching objectives of such a network and try to come up with a list of indicators for the effectiveness of this network - not only from a biodiversity perspective, but also (and this in my mind is the truly quite exciting bit - albeit also most challenging!) from a socio-economic and management perspective. There were about 30 or so people that attended the meeting - all truly passionate, dedicated and committed to make things move forward. We worked ourselves hard - but it was well worth it! For some info - and for those of you who dabble in some french here's some background info.

So since my return it's been tying up lose ends, catching up on accumulated emails and getting ready to launch myself into the thesis again - I want to make serious progress in August and am actually really excited about it :o)

This weekend I have tasked myself with getting quite a bit of reading done - mostly of foodweb related matters but also on marine protected areas. So much is being published these days it's hard to keep one's head above water - but it's funny how with the years I've developed a method to my madness, knowing how to read papers depending on what I want to extract from them/use them for. 

..and as a treat I am going to keep things exciting by going climbing (if it's stops raining that is!) Can't wait to give my muscles some exercise - after all it's the best way to go otherwise they'd get jealous of all the exercise the  brain is getting ;o)

And to finish this post on a light note - check out this video - it is SO cool!

Water spouts and where did the millions go?

Yikes -- over a month since I've last updated my blog ... NOT GOOD! And definitely indicative of the hectic times.
Highlights of these however:

Submission of my second chapter - HOURRAY! So now I need to cross fingers and toes, and learn to be patient!
I am making good progress on chapter 4 - i.e., I have a balanced model, and after review by one of the experts in Hawaii he commented ' Good job pulling it together.' Thus, I now need to address some of his questions and put together 2-3 slides for a presentation my collaborators will be giving at the end of the month. This should also constitute a 'harder' deadline - I want to have the final report done by then as well.

My financial situation on the other hand isn't so rosy shall we say - hence it is back to contract work for me. Not a bad thing, keeps my neurons active on multiple fronts ;o) and my interests diversified!

Having lunch just now i came across some very depressing news and a fascinating clip - the depressing bit first: BBC uncovers lost Iraq billions

"Henry Waxman who chairs the House Committee on Oversight and Government Reform said: "The money that's gone into waste, fraud and abuse under these contracts is just so outrageous, its egregious. It may well turn out to be the largest war profiteering in history."

In the run-up to the invasion one of the most senior officials in charge of procurement in the Pentagon objected to a contract potentially worth seven billion that was given to Halliburton, a Texan company, which used to be run by Dick Cheney before he became vice-president.

Unusually only Halliburton got to bid - and won."

Disgusting.

On a lighter note - check out this video clip! Incredible no?! Mother nature never seizes to amase me.

When your body tells you: you should perhaps slow down a little

This past week has been relatively hectic - spring is a funny time. The weather is seemingly all over the place: last Friday it snowed, yesterday it was balmy, only to be overcast and quite cool today. Who knows what tomorrow will bring. For some reason my body is quite sensitive to those changes and not only does my skin feel particularly dry and my hair all static-ey, but all I feel like doing is sleeping!!! This is accompanied by series of weird dreams - my subconscious quite seriously puzzles me sometimes!
I think part of why I feel quite exhausted is not only the amount of work I am coping with at the moment, but also the fact that I sprained both my ankle and my wrist - after 2 weeks of pretending it was no big deal, I finally gave in to the fact that ok! ok! I am no youngster anymore, I take a little longer to heal, and in this particular instance perhaps I should go see a professional ‘healer’! I am glad I did - I was advised to rest ;o) It's OK to do so when the doctor says so right?
Joke aside - I've postponed climbing and am taking it easy --- my body, I think, is thanking me for it, yet my mind feels restless.

I am tackling chapter 4 still these days - have derived most of my basic estimates. Am thus now working on developing a diet matrix. A tricky component of the modelling process. It takes time to compile, and I feel like I need to devote quite a bit of attention to it. Yet it also is the first place you go to when attempting to balance the model. Hence difficult to determine ahead of time just how many hours you should spend on figuring out the intricacies of diets in the first place! It makes sense though that it would be one of the most flexible pieces of the puzzle as it were - what a bird eats in the winter versus the summer for example varies, so the average throughout the year for a group of them may be hard to determine as it will be based on the (temporal) nature of the sampling regimes and how thorough those were. Not only that, but for some of the species I am looking at, I have no data for Hawaii proper so I am importing data from Malaysia, Japan, yet in all likelihood my beasties in my park don't eat those same things in the same proportions, if at all. Ahhh the joys of modelling - it feels at times like it is such an inexact science. Yet I guess part of the trick (and learning experience) is to gain sufficient confidence in it all to be able to determine just what parameters can easily be tweaked without compromising the "real-ness" of the model. Ultimately, it also helps to pinpoint gaps in current understanding, help refine existing datasets so as to get a more focused, integrated view of the whole ecosystem.
I like it - it just takes time and the learning curve is steep!
I just need to keep at it, attempt to keep the weather anomalies in the background, and ride the waves peacefully :o)

I was just reading through the BBC websites - one article that caught my eye was the following: Species loss 'bad for our health'. I believe this is an important headline - it is only when people truly feel that their personal dimension is at risk that they spring to action. I venture to say that people are more likely to reduce their consumption of tuna because eating too much tuna leads to potentially unsafe mercury levels in our bodies - than because stocks are crashing, dolphins are potentially killed or any other suite of 'natural' disasters caused by overfishing.

Talking of selfishness of characters – go see the movie “There will be blood” if you haven’t yet. The character development in that movie is remarkable; Daniel Day Lewis’ performance extraordinary. His role gave me shivers, and not of the good kind – frightens me to think what people will be driven to when fighting over dwindling resources (rather than in the rush to wealth because of apparent overabundance in the early days of discovery).

the trouble with biofuels ... and the thesis that isn't writing itself

It's time for an update - seems like the last ten days have gone by in a flash... yet it also seems as though I just wrote an update yesterday!!! Definitely feel in some sort of time warp these days.

Let's deal with the thesis end of things first! I am happy to report that I've been working hard AND making progress... yes AND as it often feels that I am working hard but 'running to stand still' or actually move backwards even! Progress is slow - isn't it always when we're talking of a thesis?! - but we're moving in the right direction. My main challenges in the past 10 days have been to try to ascertain the biomass, productivity and consumption rate of coral (yep, they do eat, small floating plankton), a whole variety of urchins and crown of thorn starfish. Doesn't sound all that dramatic, but believe you me it has involved quite the intense literature trawls - to come up with not always very satisfying bits of info. It has certainly involved LOTS no LOOOOOOOTTTSSS of conversions -- for example from wet weights of urchins to joules!!!, I frowned and looked at the equations three times: who on earth thinks of weight in joules!!?
So after much fact checking and paper reading I think I need to be ok with my values (or mad ranges of values) and move on. This is all only to give me starting points anyways - the real tricky stuff starts once I have to 'balance' my model, i.e., make sure that the system as I define it can sustain itself.
What's next on the agenda - algae, all the little critters that live in the benthos, zooplankton, and phytoplankton. I need to be done with these this week, otherwise I am going to start lagging behind my scheduled outline for the year ... and we don't want to go there.

So now on to what's happening in the world at large. The word definitely seems to be a rather troubled sphere... Two topics caught my eye this week: biofuels and the fact that seas may rise much more than has been predicted so far. I've been reading a few articles about the food riots that have been taking place in Haiti and the Philippines for e.g.; very distressing.... to think we're diverting food to fuel cars?? That's right very disturbing, madness.... as George Monbiot suggests: one step forward is to eat less meat (and travel less). In the same vein, but as a friend of mine pointed out, perhaps more 'grounded' is an article by Paul Krugman. He points to the Chinese eating meat, rising fuel prices and biofuels as the culprits for rising food prices.
... and to add insult to injury, some of the nations that already suffer among the highest poverty rates (e.g. Bangladesh) are now threatened with increased loss of land due to rising seas of up to 1.5m!!!!

All certainly puts the pains of thesis writing in perspective .... that and the news that a friend of mine who holds a very special place in my heart recently had a car accident that very nearly killed him.
Life *is* short:

And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. ~Abraham Lincoln

We're fools whether we dance or not, so we might as well dance. ~Japanese Proverb

Digesta retention times and spring

weird sort of title eh? Well those are very much the two things that are on my mind these days. It's honestly time for spring - i need, want warmth, and sunshine.... and we *did* have a week of absolute gorgeous blue skies! after getting CRAZY hail last weekend... followed by madness rain, mixed with hail this weekend. At least we're helping to fill the water reservoirs I suppose...

As for digesta retention times (DRTs) - well i needed to know those, so I could calculate the consumption rates of my green turtles scooting around in my National park in Hawaii. It became quite the crazy affair, as I did find a paper that gave me intake rates, however to make it relevant in the context of my model, I needed to have individual turtles' weights from which the DRTs were derived... which weren't listed... so I sought out to calculate those... 'nyways, needless to say, proves to show, when you think something is going to take you about 1 day, it often ends up being about 2! Then again, I did get info for my reef fish groups relatively easily, so let's hope that when I now move on to invertebrates (e.g., urchins and crustaceans) it won't be too much of a nightmare. Fingers crossed. I am dreading having to think about how to convert algal cover into estimates of biomass, especially given how different algae can be: short and stout, long and spindly, long and tufty; like hair really!...

...but it's good, my head is into work these days. Thought a lot about comments my supervisor gave me on my second chapter, and that's pretty much wrapped up for good now :o) - at least 'til I hear back from the journal.

The highlight of my past two weeks were performances at the Vancouver Symphony as part of the Beethoven festival. On the 28th I went to see Lang Lang - it was incredible. Even more so because I was accompanied by my lovely friend Leigh, and we truly had a wonderful time.
Then this past Friday I had the incredible fortune of experiencing a performance by the great Anne Sophie Mutter - there are hardly words to describe what it felt like to see her play: transporting, raw, touching your soul in soft yet powerful ways. She just is absolutely formidable - playing some notes so quietly, yet so distinctly; other parts with such incredible vigour. All infused with so much passion and grace. Unforgettable.
...hmm, still dreaming!